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5/9/2008 3:46 pm
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There will be times when all I am thinking about is what I am to write today. This place is like the pub. The pub where all of us can sit and spew crap in a way we never could when faced with the eyeline, pheremones, visual, visceral, solid casing that contains all the words and thoughs we regurgitate so readily on here. That bag of meat that has the audacity to say who we are.

I read recently in a cruise-by that those of us who had been here for years were simply searching for something still, were deeply unhappy with our lives etc etc. This was from someone with so much rejection and misery apparent in their writing it left a bitter taste in my mouth, a mouth which was twisted into a big grin. Rictus had nothing on me.

I love joy. I love glee. I love funny. I love stupid, I occasionally love angst (mainly my own) I love me. Very very much, both in the solipsistic sense and...another one that doesn't relate entirely to myself so I can't be arsed mentioning it.

I ADORE wankers. Idiots who think their sole purpose in life is to shout "AHA!" a lot, online, which counts for fuck all really doesn't it? All you get out of it is another online lashing from people with more words at their immediate disposal than the last three generations of your family could summon if given a dictionary with pictures.

I eat what you feed me. Your joys, your narratives, highs, lows, trivialities, news, stories, memories and conflicts. I lick my lips and smile and chew and spit out the pips.

I see you when you come to me, and invariably find you dulcet and docile - calm with me who has been fed on your words, who hangs on your now. Your now. Now.

You, safe in my house, unjudged by the woman who lives in the fekkin dark; who is hopelessly, helplessly, happily addicted to the pleasure of others. Wonka Winehouse with the facilities and faculties to make it all happen. Who knows you need your hand held, knows where your smile starts and who claps like a toddler when it erupts onto your face.

And knows that the same smile will creep when you dream of the plummet off the tower block, the seconds before the train hits, the blissful oblivion of the pills, the spreading of two-tone in the bath. Sex and death.

Supernova. Next high.


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bodski
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5/9/2008 5:48 pm
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Wonder. I am left with wonder.

Hope your weekend rocks just a little bit more than normal, but just a little bit less than when girly and I were there.

Bod. ~O

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LadyCReturns replies on 5/10/2008 6:28 am:
Wonder is a good thing to be left with.

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sweetboytoy51
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5/9/2008 7:11 pm
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Okay, for that one I'm going to name one of my cherry tomato plants after you. It will be tied up to small nails on one side of the fence with strips of stockings, then freely cascade over into the alley and stretch down to the ground again.

It'll have the sun, on both sides.

cheers LadyC,
-sbt
(cheered)


LadyCReturns replies on 5/10/2008 6:29 am:
keep it mulched. I shall come to bounce on the spongy stuff in the fall.

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Geekachu
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5/10/2008 7:38 am
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You just went to the top of my "best post ever" list.

In return, you may even get a CD this century.

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"Shun-SHENG duh gao-WAHN." - Mal


LadyCReturns replies on 5/10/2008 10:01 am:
I am honoured on both counts.

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